Have I mentined how much I like Crab?

Crab is one of my favorite buttonmen ever. Not just because she often wins, but the decisions and gambits those f20 lead to are just delicious -- they are what buttonmen is all about!

I even like some of the really tough situations she brings -- like this one. I can't keep mcculloch from getting initiative, is it even worth trying? I'd like to keep my f20 showing 19 safe,
but that's not possible, if I only use by f20 with 11 to get initiative, he can win it back with his f6 and I'm dead... even if I could try to use both dice to get initiative, he'd still take it from me and I'd just have two d20s with value 1. It's hopeless, right?